Friday, November 13, 2015

I would like to believe that I am a good wife and a friend to JP. I am nowhere saying I am a perfect one. I am so impartient & impulsive it must drive him nuts. I also wear my emotions in my sleeve. No holds barr. What you see is what you get.

A lot of times people say ang swerte ko. Mabait si JP. And he is. He is quiet and strong and efficient. He has a kind heart and it radiates. Everyone who meets him knows this.

Me, I am this noisy can of a person. I say the first thing that comes to mind. A lot of times my mouth is too quick for my mind. I finish other people's sentences a lot. This is irritatating you see? I am impulsive and loud and talkative.

But I would like to believe I am a good person. Within me, I know there's a person who sees the good in other people first before anything else. I make connections easily because I am a matcher. I can forget my own personality just so I can see things your way. It is not that obvious but I have changed a lot (for  the better) for my husband.

Tonight, I find it that I am hurt. I refuse ro be a victim of my emotions that's why I acknowldge that this is something that will pass.

But even if these feelings does not follow logic I say they are still valid. And that no one else can keep my heart calm than myself and although that "hey, you're not a perfect wife but allow yourself to get hurt and be difficult everynow and then". All this because while I love my husband no one else can love "me" more than myself.

Me, I am a wife, a mother, a friend, and an imperfect antagonist. All the same I accept me. Broken parts and all.